I’m Having
Déjà vu…
These past
couple weeks have been wonderful, but a whirl wind – I love it & I “strongly
dislike it" (my mom always corrected us as kids if we said we hated
something – “Hate is a strong word, my darlings. You mean strongly dislike.” Funny little lady, but a wise one)...
When I say
I love it, I truly mean it. I am so thankful to have had numerous visitors, a fresh
area to experience new and exciting places, as well as time to see friends and
family along the east coast. These are all gifts that are meant for good and to bring joy to
your heart! But, sometimes I just get so caught up in the hustle 'n bustle of life.
Busy-ness is
often the enemy… he loves to occupy our minds with things of this world, making
sure we don’t slow down to take in each moment. To stop and thank God for His
blessings, living each day with intentionality – living life with purpose… living life on purpose (friends, take a minute to sign up for Lara Casey's monthly newsletter - her letter from this past month with details on #IntentionalAugust was wonderful – sign yourself up). We spend so much time rushing from task to task, & we often forget to recognize some of the most important moments that make up our day, constantly looking for ways we can be more efficient in order to get ahead.
Last week
we were giving our prayer requests in my small group (the fact that I have
found a small group is an answered prayer, yay Jesus), and mine was that I
would learn to balance my schedule in a healthy way. That I would be able to do
the things necessary for me, both spiritually & physically, to stay
healthy. I’m very much a creature of habit – I love a routine. In college (just
three months ago – ha. I feel like I am saying “back in the old days” : ), I had it down to a tee, and the moment I cherished most was the
morning hours of quiet time: Jesus, coffee, music. It was the best, and exactly
what I needed to keep puttin’ along.
Well, there’s
been a shift. I’m working now & I have spent the summer time adjusting…
trying to figure out what works best when trying to balance all of my to-do’s. It’s
taken a lot of experimenting, learning whether or not to say yes or
no, as well as breaking away from the habit of "people pleasing". You’re probably thinking, Meredith, come on sister. You’ve been
in NC for three months… get your act together already! I know, I feel ya… but,
that’s why this is a work in progress – I need His help, because I’ve done it
the other way, and I failed time & time again…
If I’m not
careful, I have the tendency to become overwhelmed easily when faced with a big
list of “stuff” (can you tell I’m a list girl?). And it’s not a trait I like.
It’s not attractive to be around someone like that… (e.g. last weekend getting
stuck in traffic and lost on the way up to New Jersey – sorry you had to be the
one stuck in the car with me, Mom. I love you!)
Like I said, I’m having
déjà vu. Hello, Meredith McKinney of Fall semester Junior year. I was no fun, overwhelmed, stressed, busy… I knew
the answer was Jesus – He was my way to peace & a sound mind, but I felt I
didn’t even have the time to do what I knew I needed to make the time to do. It
was ugly, but the Lord yanked me out of that. He heard my hearts cry that I
needed something more.
I will
never forget the weekend that changed my heart forever, realigning my
perspectives, and bringing me back to what truly matters. It was November of my
fall semester Junior year. Without even a moment of extra time (or so I thought) I decided to go on my
church’s college weekend retreat – my head said no, but my heart screamed yes.
I didn’t know how deeply I needed that weekend of rest, but God did... That
weekend, there was a message given by Tim Mannin titled “Busy Life”. I felt
that every word that flowed from his mouth was directed right at me, my heart,
& everything I was wrestling with.
“Where is
your spiritual tank?” – empty
“Do you
see a connection between the amount of “noise” in your life and the connection
you currently have with God?” – maybe…
okay, absolutely
Pastor Tim
went on to illustrate that there is a God that loves us so deeply, and there is
an enemy that has come to kill, steal, & destroy. The enemy will often use
the busy tasks of daily life to prevent us from experiencing a life of true joy through seeking Christ first –
to the point that we feel as if we are “too busy for God”. (side note: I hate
to say it, but those exact words had come out of my mouth the week before. I’m
telling you, this was exactly what the Lord wanted me to hear that weekend.) He
finished the message by slowly praying the words from Psalm 23:1-3 over us…
The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. He makes
me lie down in green pastures.
He leads me beside still waters. He
restores my soul.
He leads me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
// Psalm 23:1–3
Those
words grabbed my heart, and I knew
that the only way to supernatural peace & rest was not through first
accomplishing my list of to-do’s, and then making the time I had left for God,
but it was making time for God at the start, providing Him my first, and creating the space needed for Him to move in and multiply my time for my needs, according to His will.
The Lord is calling me (again) to create space, turn down the noise, & to know that He is God.
In two short days, I will be getting on a plane to fly home to Oklahoma (also known as the
greatest state in the U.S., I’m almost positive it’s fact ; ) I want to make
sure to be intentional with that time that I will have with those people I love
so dearly. I want to take time to rest – both physically & spiritually. I
want to healthily get things done,
be smart with my available time, all while taking the necessary time to stop, rest, & know…
I love
when my brother says the prayer before meals, because he always includes the
simplest sentence, yet the statement is so profound:
“Lord,
please slow this time down for us.”
Yes, Lord…
do just that, please. Help us to enjoy life from moment to moment. Help me to
see Your beauty in the smallest of details, to take full advantage of each
opportunity you place in front of me – that I will be able to see with your eyes
the vision you want me to see. Seeing this world through your lens, not viewing
You through the perspective of this world.
big hugs...
See you
all soon,
Mere
P.s. this song has been on replay for me lately – it's a good one. Precious words. Take a moment to listen, if you'd like : )
I love you. You are awesome and God is doing amazing things in your life, my bean. I cannot wait for this weekend!
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You are so wise. I pray that Gracie has your amazing heart for The Lord when she is your age. What a gift! We love you so much!
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ReplyDeleteFound your blog while reading Lara's blog today :) It is funny when I clicked on the link and saw your post on handling busyness and not getting distracted from Him, it is a message that is appearing everywhere lately - I think God is whispering for me to slow down :) xo
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:) God Bless Sam
Loved and needed this, great reminder of a great weekend of growth! Love you & your heart for Jesus, super encouraging!
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